So should I have done something different? I tried to take a nap when i felt it starting, but four hours later it just started again. I took pills to knock it out.
The what ifs:
I could have taken my pills and gone to sleep. Instead I sat in the back of the a Capella concert. I have a lot of friends who are in the groups. And it's good for me mentally to get out and see people, instead of sitting in my room feeling cranky, in pain, and sorry for myself. But it might have been better for my exhaustion today. It would have been better for my pain levels if I hadn't sat in the light for an hour.
I could have cancelled on my girlfriend. She was supposed to sleep over. We still went to bed early and I was pretty much a lump who barely made conversation. But would having that bed to myself have meant more sleep and less exhaustion, less pain? I don't know.
I don't like the what ifs. They make me feel guilty. But why should I feel guilty for trying to be happy?