New symptoms are unnerving

My muscle spasms have gotten worse. I know it could be much worse than this --like way worse -- but my muscle spasms used to be only rarely debilitating (i.e. stopping me from doing daily activities) and now they are debilitating on an almost daily basis. They are also triggering my migraines.

I take baclofen (a muscle relaxant) twice a day and flexeril (another muscle relaxant) on an as-needed basis. So about a week and a half ago, my doctor told me to start taking the flexeril three times a day.

With this new dosage, there was slightly less pain, but I was totally exhausted and super duper depressed.

Today I took myself off the flexeril to get myself back. I am going through a bit of withdrawal and the muscle spasms are worse than they were on all those pills, but I feel alive and happy in a way I haven't in over a week.

I will talk to my doctor about other ideas to treat this when she gets back from vacation in two weeks. In the meantime, I will be:

• getting a better mattress pad
• possibly dropping a class (I am so behind in school work)
• looking into the price of my university's medical center's massage person
• trying to get used to these new pain levels.

Hopefully there will be a solution, other than getting used to new pain levels.

Summer Internship: Ouch

I am not allowed to bring pills inside my summer internship, or even leave them in the car. I understand that the rule makes sense (I work with a lot of drug abusers and recovering addicts) but it causes big problems for me. This summer has been quite painful in fact.

It's hard to predict in the morning whether I'm truly going to need my medication. But if I don't take them, then there are seven hours of florescent lights, sometimes a hot room, and loud noises.

Migraine medications work best if taken at the beginning of a migraine. However, I have a constant headache so that can be hard to catch. But if I take my medications too often, then they can cause rebound headaches, even give me heart problems.


The additional problem is that I currently need to drive to my internship. However, several of my medications make me slightly dizzy and then I can't drive. So I have less access to my medications and fewer medications to choose from.

Today I misjudged whether I was going to need a migraine. And it struck fast and I had to leave several hours early.

I wish I could figure this out. I wish I didn't have to disappoint people and leave. I wish I didn't have to rule this out as a possible career because my body can't take it. It's so frustrating!

Any ideas?